i'll stand by you..

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
and you don't know what to do
Nothing you confess could make me love you less.

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So, if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well, I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
and don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'Cause even if you're wrong...

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

Take me in, into your darkest hour
and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you...

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you are the love of my life, and i thank God every day for you!

it's amazing to me (and i know i have said this many times before) that we found each other when we did.. even though we were living our own lives, we were on the same exact path - be it wrong or right, and we just HAD to run into each other somehow along that crooked way..

and we did..

and each day since that cold evening of january 22, 2003 when i first saw your beautiful face, you have captivated me.. and you have possessed me.. and you have loved me, and stood by me.. and you have shown me more love than i thought possible..

how could i do anything else but love you back? you are light, and joy, and life.. and you are love..

i adore you, and i will always stand by you, and will always have your back..

uncertain days?

always there for you..

hard times?

always loving you..

the best years of our lives?

yes, just as it is now - always..

the good wife's guide...

just in time for the christmas season, from Good Housekeeping 1955:

1. Have dinner ready. Plan ahead, even the night before, to have a delicious meal ready on time for his return. This is a way of letting him know that you have be thinking about him and are concerned about his needs. Most men are hungry when they get home and the prospect of a good meal is part of the warm welcome needed.

2. Prepare yourself. Take 15 minutes to rest so you'll be refreshed when he arrives. Touch up your make-up, put a ribbon in your hair and be fresh-looking. He has just been with a lot of work-weary people.

3. Be a little gay and a little more interesting for him. His boring day may need a lift and one of your duties is to provide it.

4. Clear away the clutter. Make one last trip through the main part of the house just before your husband arrives. Run a dustcloth over the tables.

5. During the cooler months of the year you should prepare and light a fire for him to unwind by. Your husband will feel he has reached a haven of rest and order, and it will give you a lift too. After all, catering to his comfort will provide you with immense personal satisfaction.

6. Minimize all noise. At the time of his arrival, eliminate all noise of the washer, dryer or vacuum. Encourage the children to be quiet.

7. Be happy to see him.

8. Greet him with a warm smile and show sincerity in your desire to please him.
9. Listen to him. You may have a dozen important things to tell him, but the moment of his arrival is not the time. Let him talk first - remember, his topics of conversation are more important than yours.

10. Don't greet him with complaints and problems.

11. Don't complain if he's late for dinner or even if he stays out all night. Count this as minor compared to what he might have gone through at work.

12. Make him comfortable. Have him lean back in a comfortable chair or lie him down in the bedroom. Have a cool or warm drink ready for him.

13. Arrange his pillow and offer to take off his shoes. Speak in a low, soothing and pleasant voice.

14. Don't ask him questions about his actions or question his judgment or integrity. Remember, he is the master of the house and as such will always exercise his will with fairness and truthfulness. You have no right to question him.

15. A good wife always knows her place.

4 more days...

it's really getting down to the wire here.. there's only a few of us left, and none of us are working too much at all.. it's weird - a little over 12 years of working here - and it's all gonna be over friday..

what will i miss? i guess just the comfy feeling of knowing what i'm doing here.. the friends i've made.. the five weeks of vacation..

what will i not miss? the horrible commute - either on bush or lbj.. both SUCK.. my psycho boss, who can be the nicest person one day, and a raving controlling micromanaging bitch the next.. the bugs in the bathroom (although i hafta admit it - i WILL miss the rolly-polly cutesy bugs).. the shit on the floor in the WOMEN'S bathroom (WTF??).. the substandard office and outdated equipment..

all in all it's been a good run, though.. i got to work from home for six years, and i loved that (in more ways than one, too - bad girl that i am).. i met one of my bestest rocker chick friends who now comes to karaoke and concerts with us.. the almost nonexistant dress code was nice, too.. the freedom to express myself through my dress and tattoos and piercings was very nice..

i hope wherever i land next will be as enlightened in regards to letting me be ME.. whatever that is.. and i hope for a killer job making tons o' dough.. ahem.. just wish the looking part was over with..

anyone have a job for me making the bucks while letting me play??

rrrrrrrrrrright...

monday's attack of the AWWWWWWW!!

post-thanksgiving coma! awwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!

jenny watch...

143 days in --- have gained four ounces since november 18..

total loss so far: 40.2 pounds

just a thought:

...if the Indians would have killed a cat instead of a turkey, we'd all be eating pussy for dinner...


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i have dave to thank for that one..

Top Twenty Things that Sound Dirty at Thanksgiving but Aren't...

taken from my post last thanksgiving (i be lazy today to THINK of something new):



20. "Just reach in and grab the giblets."

19. "Whew...that's one terrific spread!"

18. "Just wait your turn, you'll get some!"

17. "Don't play with your meat."

16. "Just spread the legs open and stuff it in."

15. "Do you really think you'll be able to handle all these people at once?"

14. "You still have a little bit on your chin."

13. "Use a nice smooth stroke when you whip it."

12. "I didn't expect everyone to come at once!"

11. "How long will it take after you stick it in?"

10. "You'll know it's ready when it pops up."

9. "Just lay back and take it easy...I'll do the rest."

8. "I am in the mood for a little dark meat!"

7. "Tying the legs together will keep the inside moist."

6. "Talk about a HUGE breast!"

5. "And he forces his way into the end zone!"

4. "She's 5000 pounds fully inflated and it takes 15 men to
hold her down."

3. "It's cool whip time!"

2. "If I don't unbutton my pants, I am going to burst!"


. . . and the number one thing that sounds dirty at
Thanksgiving but isn't . .

1. "It's a little dry, do you still want to eat it?"

monday's attack of the AWWWWWWW!!

i love this!!!!! cute cute cute!! and awwwwwwwwwwwwww-aw-licious!

jenny watch...

136 days in --- have gained one whole pound since november 11..

total loss so far: 40.6 pounds



arg.


i think the drinking did me in this week, plus the thanksgiving spread at work... eeeeeeeek

gotta SO watch it this week of the dressing, cream cheese corn, sweet potatoes, punkin pie...


MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!

i mean --- YUCK!!!!

just how sick is this?

In a new TV interview and book, O.J. Simpson discusses how he would have committed the slayings of his ex-wife and her friend "if I did it."

The two-part television interview, titled "O.J. Simpson: If I Did It, Here's How It Happened," will air Nov. 27 and Nov. 29 on Fox, the TV network said Tuesday.

"O.J. Simpson, in his own words, tells for the first time how he would have committed the murders if he were the one responsible for the crimes," the network said in a statement. "In the two-part event, Simpson describes how he would have carried out the murders he has vehemently denied committing for over a decade."

"This is an interview that no one thought would ever happen. Its the definitive last chapter in the Trial of the Century," Mike Darnell, executive vice president of alternative programming for Fox, said in a statement.

The interview, conducted with book publisher Judith Regan, will air days before Simpson's new book, "If I Did It," goes on sale Nov. 30. The book "hypothetically describes how the murders would have been committed," the network said.

The book is published by ReganBooks, an imprint of HarperCollins Publishers run by Regan.

Simpson, who now lives in Florida, was acquitted in a criminal trial of the 1994 killings of his ex-wife, Nicole Brown Simpson, and her friend Ronald Goldman. Simpson was later found liable in 1997 in a wrongful death lawsuit filed by the Goldman family.

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i wonder how hot it's gonna be in hell for him...

lest we forget:

for all my friends:

it's charrrrrrllllllieeeeeeeeeeeee going to the candy mountain - the candy mounnnnntainnnnn! full of joy and (that sound jason makes) joyness..

if you don't like this, then SHUN, SHUNNNNNN...NNNNNUH

here ya go, Honey...

...the reason i like watching 'ugly betty':

perfect salma hayek --- MUY CALIENTE!!!



makes me LOCO!

monday's attack of the AWWWWWWW!!

hoverdogs!! awwwwwwwwww!!!

in my life...

There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed.
Some forever not for better,
Some have gone, and some remain.

All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall.
Some are dead and some are living.
In my life I love them all.

But of all these friends and lovers,
There is no one compares with you.
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new.

Though I know I’ll never ever lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know I’ll often stop and think about them.
In my life I love you more.

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no matter what happens in my life - health, sickness, joy (joyness), despair, wealth, poverty...

no matter who i meet in my life - friends, strangers, dear ones, hated ones...

no matter where i am in my life - dallas, japan, new york, cancun...

no matter when in my life i have to say goodbye - today, tomorrow, ten years, tweny or more...

one thing is for certain:

in my life - you have made me happy, and you continue to make me happy.. and i have never in my life experienced such unconditional and lasting love as i am experiencing now with you.. and no matter what, who, where, or when happens in and to and on and around my life, i know i can face it because more than any of this - oh my god, i love you more..

for you..

all day long, all night long.. 11:11 on 11/11

ily seeeeeeeeeely

jenny watch...

129 days in --- have lost 2.2 pounds since november 4..

total loss so far: 41.6 pounds



lucky lucky me this week..

botched jokes of the week...

man, it's been a bad week for these jokesters -


what a chuckle-head:



bad form, faith:




honestly, i didn't see the punchline of this one coming:























and of course, in this case, the joke is on US:

monday's attack of the AWWWWWWW!!

i have been posting 'monday's attack of the awwwwww!!' for a while now, and failed to explain the criteria i use to choose these darling, cuddly wuddly, cutesy-wootsie animals.. there is an actual formula which determines which sweeties get to be called "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww-i-riffic"..

well, wait no longer, cause here they are - the 27 rules of cuteness:

1. put your paw up

2. look helpless

3. have an inquisitive look

4. more than one species of animals flopping around together is cute

5. fisheye lens + baby animal = always cute

6. mimic humans

7. a thing, accompanied by a smaller version of that thing, is always cute

8. it's cute if your furniture doubles as a meal

9. piles of a cute thing jack up a cuteness rating exponentially

10. if you haven't grown into your feet yet, it's cute

11. cute animal + food = even cuter

12. fuzz + floppy limbs = cutesy

13. "juicy" eyes and noses

14. if an everyday, small item makes you look even smaller, it's cute

15. small ear to head ratio - too cute!

16. awwww shoot - nevermind...

17. have itty bitty ears

18. have a teeny tiny tail

19. dainty paws are just darn cute

20. showing those dainty paw pads is so cute

21. eye capsules are bizarrely cute

22. curl up your paw

23. those knobby knees make you cute

24. suction cups on your feet are tres cute

25. dangle your paw - awwwww, that's cute!

26. if you have four legs, and can tuck yourself in, you just might be cute!

27. sleepy eyes are just da bomb of cute-i-tude!

a week off..

Doug and i are off all week from work.. we have no plans other than eating one of the days at the place we first met almost 4 years ago (pappasitos), and just hangin' and seeing a movie or two..

work is wearing me down, and i am stressed about trying to find a job.. i haven't had to look for a job, well, EVER! either i just stumbled into something when i was a lot younger, or i have been courted.. so i am new at this, and so far, not doing so well..

tons of other pressures are on us now, too.. so a week off just to rest and recover and love is truly needed..

jenny watch...

122 days in --- have lost 3.2 pounds since october 28..

total loss so far: 39.4 pounds

almost 40 lbs... woo hoooooooo!

fuckin' wah

to any of my friends who may read this, please excuse this sad little pity-fest i have written here, and just go on with what you were doing - don't even bother to read - this is just me venting - and being pissed off at no one but ME..

pay no attention to the man behind this comfortless curtain, please..

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ever been at a place where it's so hard to breathe that you think you might just have only one breath left, and even that one is about gone? that's where i am..

i am thinking back on my life, and realizing what an arrogant fool i have been.. surely nothing could touch me - not ME, the queen of all i see.. such a stupid fool.. i knew everything, and decided everything, and made everything that now befalls upon me truly a product of my own doing.. a motherfuckin' speeding freight train of my own medicine is speeding its way towards me, and i am like a dear (and no, i didn't mispell 'deer' here) caught in headlights, and lord don't i just look hilarious now?

slam the latest metallica offering if you will, but oh my god, did james hit it on the head when he wrote: "my lifestyle determines my death style".. no truer words were ever written.. and even though i am not facing death at this moment, i do realize every day is one day closer.. and i have been a great enabler..

and i have let myself down.. and my kids.. and my Man.. and my family.. and and and.. and i guess since i have in the past had no regard at all for myself, life is gonna have a little fun with me now, and i tell ya, "Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out"...

gee, thanks for the 'help', but i am doing just chippies with this - you just sit this one out, life.. i tell ya, i have ESP on this one so just sit the fuck down..





god, i need meds, don't i?




shut up, traci, and smile, make 'em think you're happy..

: ) .......... there - better?

wouldn't mom be so proud of me..

A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel

Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn

So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one

I hear a thunder in the distance
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness
Only He holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me life eternally

Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time

So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one

I cry out to God
Seeking only His decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

Urban Word of the Day

SHORT DEFINITIONS:


guitar face: The look of pain, ecstasy or gas while playing the guitar.

january joiner: Joining the gym in January, over it by February.

gangsta lean: Driver holds the wheel with his left hand, bobs his head, bumps to the beat.

ho ho ho: Santa's cry, or three prostitutes.

shoulder surfing: Chatting it up, but always scoping someone better to talk to.

dandruff: One who always ditches, or "flakes" on group activities.

safety buzz: Drinking so you have an excuse for the trouble you might get into later.

word out: Marks the end of a conversation and your departure. Opposite of "word up."

earjacking: Eavesdropping on a conversation that you have no business hearing.

dinner whore: A girl who is exclusively after a free meal or an expensive gift.

rock star parking: The rare occurrence of obtaining a parking space directly outside the door of a bar, club, or restaurant.