the time has come...

to say goodbye to my 12-yr job... really hard to do... don't wanna... i'm already here even though the bridges were icy this morning - sitting alone cause no one is in yet.. it's gonna be a hard day.. we are all going to lunch together today for the last time, and tonight there is gonna be a huge party with tons of blast-from-the-past coworkers and friends.. i'm even gonna sing for them - hopefully it will be encouraging to us all:

This time around I'll take the moment
This time around I'll make it last
I've had my share of wasted moments
But this time around I'm holding fast
This time around I will be stronger
Stronger than I've been before
I'll find the sky and soar
This time around

This time around I will be daring
I'm going where I've never been
This time around luck will come knocking
And when he does I'll let him in
This time around - No second places
I'm showing aces - I'll win
I'm gonna have it all
This time around

Love, I'm gonna find you
Happiness, I'm right behind you
I've had my share of crying
But there's no denying I'm on my way

This time around I'll taste the glory
And I'm not going down without a fight
This is my life, my own story
And this time around I'll get it right
This time around, I'm gonna find it
Look out world, watch me shine, shine
I'm gonna grab that big brass ring
And I'm gonna make it mine
This time around, I'm gonna make it mine


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whatever..

cause that's not how i feel right now.. i am very down, and just wish this wasn't happening.. it's scary thinking that come monday, i won't have a job to go to.. i have worked all my adult life, and a lot of my teen years too, so this is gonna be different..

of course, i will get another job.. hopefully in time to start early january (i wanna take december off).. and i hope that i can get some stuff done while i am off...

blah..
don't wanna..

oh well - that's life.. and that's coporate america..