bottom of the barrel
i'm broke...
no, it's not the first time since i've been out on my own since the divorce that i have scraped the bottom of the ol' bank account, but i have the feeling this one is a-gonna hurt..
you see, it's the 1st occurrence of the "no child support" era of my post-divorce, pre-son-leaving life.. suddenly i am $800 per month poorer..
i really didn't think it was gonna hit this month; thought it would be next month when the checks stopped coming..
WRONG
my son will be moving out soon, so he won't be hurt, of course, by this abrupt end to what was the rent money.. but i am..
before you start thinking that the only reason i am writing this is because i am gonna miss the money, think again.. i am gonna miss my son desperately.. he is 15, a sophomore in high school.. he's a good kid.. moody like most teens, but really a good kid.. makes good grades.. plays percussion.. funny.. bright.. everything a mom could want in a son.. i am gonna miss his smile, his face, his laughter, his eyes.. i will see him every other weekend.. hopefully more..
his dad will provide better for him financially.. things will be ok for my son financially now..
i just don't know what to do myself.. i hate being the age i am and facing this.. i should be making more at my job.. i should have more of a handle on my money.. but right now, i don't..
and it is gonna bite me big time in about 2-3 days when the rent check bounces.. and i have no funds to cover it..
i just saw the movie "rent" last week, and i can totally relate to the lyrics "how are we gonna pay last year's rent?" - how the hell am i gonna make it?? don't know..
help?
no, it's not the first time since i've been out on my own since the divorce that i have scraped the bottom of the ol' bank account, but i have the feeling this one is a-gonna hurt..
you see, it's the 1st occurrence of the "no child support" era of my post-divorce, pre-son-leaving life.. suddenly i am $800 per month poorer..
i really didn't think it was gonna hit this month; thought it would be next month when the checks stopped coming..
WRONG
my son will be moving out soon, so he won't be hurt, of course, by this abrupt end to what was the rent money.. but i am..
before you start thinking that the only reason i am writing this is because i am gonna miss the money, think again.. i am gonna miss my son desperately.. he is 15, a sophomore in high school.. he's a good kid.. moody like most teens, but really a good kid.. makes good grades.. plays percussion.. funny.. bright.. everything a mom could want in a son.. i am gonna miss his smile, his face, his laughter, his eyes.. i will see him every other weekend.. hopefully more..
his dad will provide better for him financially.. things will be ok for my son financially now..
i just don't know what to do myself.. i hate being the age i am and facing this.. i should be making more at my job.. i should have more of a handle on my money.. but right now, i don't..
and it is gonna bite me big time in about 2-3 days when the rent check bounces.. and i have no funds to cover it..
i just saw the movie "rent" last week, and i can totally relate to the lyrics "how are we gonna pay last year's rent?" - how the hell am i gonna make it?? don't know..
help?
posted by texsinger @ 6:55 PM
11 Comments:
At 1:06 PM,
NewYorkMoments said…
Oh God...I can totally relate to the money thing. That sucks. Sorry.
At 7:38 AM,
texsinger said…
thank you so much for your comment.. i just hate that this is happening right before christmas - it is just amazing to me that my ex is this heartless.. but yet, i should expect it from him..
anywho.. i am sure things will be ok.. blahhhhhhh..
again, thanks for your nice words.. i really appreciate it - the best to you!
At 5:36 PM,
NewYorkMoments said…
He's your ex because he's heartless! A LOT of men suck.
That's why I have 2 dogs instead.
At 9:18 PM,
texsinger said…
yes, a lot of men DO... ack!! i tell ya, if it weren't for the wonderful man in my life now, i would seriously be a lesbian..
At 5:38 AM,
NewYorkMoments said…
Oh God...I can't deal w/ chicks either. I think women are more dangerous because we're smarter. Men are heartless, but their limited mentally & emotionally.
At 5:39 AM,
NewYorkMoments said…
Duhhh their. Sheesh.
THEY ARE
At 5:58 AM,
texsinger said…
"I think women are more dangerous because we're smarter." --- i knew there was a reason i like you so much!
sounds like there needs to be a 3rd option since both men and women are no-go's.. any ideas?
; )
At 9:54 AM,
Reverse_Vampyr said…
There is a third option.
But it requires batteries.
At 2:39 PM,
NewYorkMoments said…
Most of my toys plug in.
At 2:41 PM,
NewYorkMoments said…
I'd like to invent a new breed of men. Anyone know a geneticist.
At 5:25 AM,
texsinger said…
ooooooooh yeah.. my best one plugs in too.. woo hooooooooooooo!!
i tell ya though, my man's tongue last night just about sent me to the moon and back and back again and again.. and for a very long time, too..
he definitely is a breed all of his own.. the yummy kind..
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